He is near...
He is everywhere...
He is watching...
He is omniscient...
He is omnipotent...
He is whispering...
...I can see you...
...I can tell you...
...I am everything...
...
But, who are you?
...
...
...
I am alone...
This feeling which is accompanying love,
When it will end ?
Earlier you think it will, Later than I want
This feeling is sadness...
Which often stick in people hearts...
This is not sadness, This is sorrow...
Which is like nostalgia to something, what I never had...
This is not sorrow, This is pain...
Which is hurting my soul all the time...
This is not pain, this is suffering...
Which is continous agony...
And this is 'True face' of love...
Chain of the sadness, sorrow, pain and suffering.
At The End of The World,
There is a beautiful woman,
She has bandage on her eyes,
She is blind.
There is a libra in her hands,
And its two scales,
Are designed for,
The acts of good,
And evil.
But who cares about that,
About the fair verdict ?
Everything is passing by,
Our acts also,
Nothing will stay,
What should we worry about ?
At the End of The World
Should be a beautiful woman,
Without any bandage,
With tears in her eyes.
She should has a libra in her hands,
With two scales, which are counting,
Things, which are worth to live,
And things because of which, it is worth to die,
Libra always show one thing,
Is this be
Enormous cold, deep inside...
I can not breathe...
I am choking...
I can not control this...
It is growing inside...
I can not keep this inside me...
But i have to...
I can not count on others...
Nobody can help...
I can not exist like everybody...
But i have to try...
I can try all the time...
Until the day I die...
I am standing in the fog…
It is like cold water…
Like autumn rain…
I can not breathe here…
I am choking with this fog…
It is inside me…
I can feel enormous cold…
It is squeezing me…
Deep inside…
I want to cry…
I can feel I am crying…
But only inside…
My eyes can not drop any tear…
I want to scream…
But it is lowering my voice…
This feeling…
Is it nostalgia?
I do not know…
But it is terrible…
This feeling…
Similar to fear…
But it is worse…
It can last longer…
And never end…
I can not hang it on…
Please…
Something must happen…
Something must change…
Something must be different…
It is killing me…
I can not hang it o
Even if you can see the way to the hapiness...
That does not mean you can follow it....
You are destined to live where you are....
Forever...
You can accept it....
Or try to die....
I do not understand...
You do not understand almost everything...
What this time?
A while ago... you said....
That you will enjoy yor life...
It is too hard for me...
You said you will fight....
I did not know how hard it will be...
That you would not stop...
I tried...
You said you do not want to get back...
Because I do not want...
You said you would not get back...
So I was wrong...
It is too hard...
I want to get asleep...
And never get awake...
Do you want to dream?
No!
I want to forgot...
Everything is unclearly...
What do you mean?
Everything what make pleasure...
Also make a pain...
Life is a gift...
But also it is a curse...
Everything what distinguish us from animals...
Is a gift... and a curse...
Feelings...
Emotions...
Ability to think...
Would you want to live without feelings?
Yes i would...
Without emotions?
Yes i would...
Without sensation of living ?
This is the worst thing...
Only people can be happy...
Only people can be sad...
Only people can be good...
Only poeple can be bad...
Would you want to be an animal?
I would want to do not exist...
Another day....
Day like everyday...
How it was?
Better not ask...
Why?
It was so painful...
Why?
Because I can not live...
Lonely...Why i have to live with people?
Are you serious?
Yes I am...
Would you want to live in loneliness?
No I would not...
But I do not want to live with people...
Why I can not live alone...
I want to forgot everything...
What do you mean?
My life...
My dreams...
Everything...
Why?
Because it is so painful...
Why I have to live ?
You do not have to...
Can you tell me...
What?
What is after death?
I am sorry, but i do not know....
I want to forgot, and to be forgotten...
Is it so much?
It
I have strange feeling...
What do you mean?
I did not feel that...
For a long time...
What can you feel?
I think...
I am happy...
I am really pleased to hear that.
What happend?
I could feel breath...
Um...
I could feel touch...
I do not...
I could see the spark in eyes...
Undestand...
You do not have to...
The important is that...
That I understand...
She is always coming...
She comes to everybody...
You can make her come eariler...
You can't make her come later...
You can be afraid of her...
But you don't have to...
She can stop your sorrows, she can stop your pain...
But you don't know... if...she is not the start of the nothingness...
Who is she?
If you know that you are only a shadow of yourself....
If you know that you can't be happy in your life...
If you know that nothing can help you....
You know that the only way, which is left....
Is the way to the nothingness...
If you feel like you have to run...
But you can't move...
If you feel like you have to scream...
But you can't open your mouth...
If you feel like you are only watching the world...
From the other side of window...
If you feel like you are out of this world...
You feel the pain of helplessness...
On the other side…
Above the sea of despair...
Under the sky of freedom...
In the world of illusion....
There is a lonely gate...
Which can lead you on....
To the inside of your heart....
Which is only a graveyard....
Of dead dreams and unfair hope....
The cold of rejection... by LordDeshter, literature
Literature
The cold of rejection...
I stand alone…
On the frozen land of my mind....
The frost is hurting me all the time...
Like people who surround me...
Every step make me hurt...
Like every day of my life...
No matter where I look... I can't see a better view...
Like when I look into my future...
I can feel an enormous hunger...
Hunger of feelings...
Would this ever change?
I don't think so...
I walk alone through my life...
When I look back I can see...
Myself living happily...
In Dream of delightful ignorance...
But suddenly, reality crushed me...
Everything has changed...
Nothing is like before...
And now I'm walking through...
Empty desert...
A Graveyard of my old personalities...
Everything is an illusion...
People are only a corrupted beings...
I don't want to raise my eyesight...
It will make only a bigger pain...
I have to exist...
Because I don't have...
So much courage...
To break this chain...
Chain of sufferance and cursed fate...
Everything is an illusion...
Feelings keeps on...
Believing in it...
Emotions...
Are showing you the truth...
Any time from now....
You can see...
Other face of someone...
Especially when you do not expect this...
Can I see tear on my face?
So pitiful...
No more, no less...
Like everything in this world...
Why I have to live...
Here, where everyone hurts me...
Would I be able to trust anyone?
It is so hard....
Why I have to live here?
Why I can not change my fate?
I do not want to see bad things...
But when I try to forgot...
They appear in my mind...
It makes me remember...
The things I already forgot...
It is broking
I am dying... I can feel by LordDeshter, literature
Literature
I am dying... I can feel
I am dying...
I can feel that...
Why I am doing this?
Doing what?
Everything...
I do not want to...
Do this...
So stop...
But it is not so easy...
So do not stop...
But it is so painful...
I have feelings...
I know...
But only you...
Why nobody else...
Why nobody can see that...
I have feelings...
I think you are wrong..
I think that everybody knows that...
So why?
Why nobody respect them?
I can not believe...
That everybody...
In the world...
Are you serious?
Yes i am...
That would mean...
All people i know...
Are...
Cruel...
Mean...
Maybe you are misunderstood...
Yes I am...
I am dreaming all the time...
I was so stupid...
I was calling Death...
So many times...
But truly...
I do not know what is it...
Death...
I am not afraid of it...
I think...
But now, I do not want to...
Die...
I think now is this time...
The time when i would start...
I will start fighting now!
I will fight for everything I want...
I would not stop...
Until i start...
Enjoying my life!
I walk a lonely road...
But now is this time...
I will left it far away...
Behind my new life...
I do not know...
If I am doing right...
But Whatever happens...
I can get back...
And I am calling you now!
"Life, you would not threaten me
Not anymore!"
I will fin